Why is the thought of turning forty such a big deal?
Why does the age of forty bring so much dread? Forty seems to mark the end of
youth and the beginning old age, but forty is not such a bad place to be. As
Bob Hope once said, “She said she was approaching 40 and I couldn't help
wondering from what direction”. As I approach my fortieth birthday, I reflect
on the decisions and actions that brought me to this path in life.
When I first thought about turning forty, I was
focused on where I had expected to be at this point in my life. I was focused
on my several failed relationships, my financial loss and struggles, and
mediocre career. I became very depressed looking at all my failures. As I
wallowed in self-pity, I allowed my thoughts to stew on all the things I didn’t
have; no husband, no house, no financial security, and an unfulfilling career.
I felt so old and unaccomplished.
I was pulled from my pit of despair by my best
friend’s persistence of the progress I have made in the past few years to
better understand myself and move in a more positive direction. After two years
of self-discovery and growth I am ready to hit the restart button on my life. I
have managed to set myself up for great new adventures and opportunities.
I have put
systems in place to improve my finances and become debt free in three years. I
have increased my education allowing for more career opportunities. And
although I am not in a relationship, God has exposed me to the errors of my
past, provided me knowledge, and blessed me with discernment to allow the right
person to come into my life. As I look at my life with new vision, I see that
it’s pretty good and only getting better.
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